Gah, I�m still concerned about that stage of drunkenness just before I pass out but well after the black out period. That.. downward slide, when it�s all almost over. I think I enter this sort of �waking� nightmare state which bothers me. I�ve, of course, learned a bit more of what happened.. much to my chagrin. Apparently, I was curled up crying in the backyard at some point saying I hated myself and that there were people in the house.

I�m thinking I�m not going to drink for quite some time, that�s rather psychotic. Scary stuff.

-G