This may be my last entry ever. Which, if you think about it, is really like every other entry. The only difference being is I�m pointing it out now. I�m flying to Detroit in a few hours for a fun filled toxic weekend. It�ll be grand.

I came home tonight feeling bloated and disgusting from too much food and beer, dropped my keys into the vines near my door and decided I should just sit there for awhile. The night was busy with silence, meaning, there were a lot of little creepy things crawling around trying to be quiet to avoid being eaten or stepped on by something else.

I watched the porch light, the little universe complete with orbiting stupid moths, and though about writing my last entry ever. It�s going to be so disappointing if I make it back unscathed and am capable of writing another entry. What a let down. How melodramatic. How boring....

And you, with the stupid look on your face (no, not you, YOU.. yeah..) I don�t have a death wish nor do I want to die or any of that other contrived bullshit. So get off your maternal horse ya freak. If given the choice by some guy in a hood and a stupid grin (wielding a scythe, of course), I would naturally choose life. But if I�m going to die in a flaming ball or choke to death on my honey roasted peanuts, I don�t want to be all whiney about it. I�d much rather savor the experience as well.. it would be my last.

I don�t understand why people are so afraid of death. Afraid of the unknown.. for fucks sake, it�s UNKNOWN. It could be the best thing ever, you don�t know! Death could be your one big chance to ride on the yellow sub-marine to happy-land. It could also be nothing. Or it could be marshmallows and porn stars. Why get all anxious about it? Fear... if anything makes the world go around, it�s fear (well, other then, you know.. physics).

Okay well I still haven�t packed, nor slept, nor done anything remotely productive. I did, however, squash a bug who wasn�t so good at the sneaky bit.

Hey. I�m doing my part for natural selection, get off it.

-G

P.S. If this indeed isn�t my last entry ever, then I�ll be back late Monday night. Tootles!

P.S.S. I opened a fortune cookie today. It didn't have a fortune. I don't have a fortune! Well.. yes, we all know how broke I am, but that's not my point damn it. Ahh nevermind.